Yesterday was my first day of OJT.. I was really excited because finally I am able to experience what its like when working although its only a training..

I arrived at exactly 9:25 cause my schedule was 10-6pm but I started around 11am cause the hr manager had an urgent meeting. I was with my classmate and some practicumers.

When he came, he ask his assistant to lead us to our department.. he gave us our time card. I was assigned in Banquet.

When we reached the department I am assigned to, the HR assistant introduced me to their chief waiter. Mabait naman siya. He asked one of the waiter to tour me around the kitchen and in the second floor banquet hall.

When we get back.. I started working like greeting some guests cause there was a seminar going on.. I was looking for some practicumers but I see none. I asked one of the waiter if there are girl practicumers and yes there is one.. but sadly she will be out early and I was the only girl left.. And I guess close na siya sa lahat.. May paakbay-akbay pa din sa kanya yung ibang employee. And ayoko ng ganun. And what makes me feel awkward is that I was surrounded by men. I feel like crying. I was telling myself not to feel that way but I can’t help it. Inside I was screaming “Mama, Papa, gusto ko na kayo makita.. Ayoko na dito.”

Gladly, they were all good to me, they treated me well but hindi talaga ako sanay sa ganung environment.. And parang they always ask me personal questions. I know its not bad kasi they’re getting to know me and I will be with them for a long time and we need cooperation but yung feeling na mag-isang babae lang ako.. Buti nalang may nakausap ako na taga-feu din na ka department ko kaso lalaki din and at 3pm he will be out also.. pero ka-batch ko.

I am allowed naman to ask questions.. So I asked them if we have duty during weekends.. Sadly yes.. Sabi nung isang waiter. Hindi daw pwede mag-off lalo na pagweekends dapat daw weekdays kasi maraming function pag-weekends.. Again. I want to cry. But pinipigilan ko.. I want to go home and hug mama and papa. I want to call my friends, my boyfriend.. I know OA man but yung feeling na ganun really broke my heart that I can’t even enjoy during weekends kahit sunday man lang with my family and with God.. wala namang problema sa work.. Nakapagserve ako, nakapagkuha ng some requests from customers, nakawash ng dishes… its just that, the schedule kills me. Our supervisor posted our schedule sana for today, CHENG- 12nn-8pm

I thought fixed ang sched ko na from 10-6pm but sadly hindi.. may sched pa nga akong nakita dun sa isang babae na absent na 1-9pm siya.. Syempre ako, hindi naman ako lagi masusundo so magcocommute ako.. And as a girl I have this fear na baka may something na hindi magandang mangyari specially kung ang uniform ko pa is palda..

1:30pm pinagbreak ako.. I want to cry.. Ang lungkot ko.. wala ako makausap.. wala akong makasama kumain.. wala naman kasing ibang practicummer that time kundi ako lang.. umuwi na yung babaeng kasama ko..

And now naisip ko na may isang pending slot pa ako sa isang hotel.. which is nandun ang bestfriends ko.. Mela and Dada. I told myself na pagka-out ko I will text her first..

6:25pm - Afternoon out na ako

I texted my bestfriend if pending pa din ako. She said na itatanong niya sa HR manager nila.. and kanina nga she helped me out and save me! Thank you mare! (meliit.tumblr.com)

Yun.. then I call my mom after.. hindi ko na napigilan ang iyak ko.. pero hindi niya nahalata na umiiyak ako.. Sabi ko sunduin na nila ako..

Nag-milk tea muna ako.. and I send messages to my best friend and boyfriend about what happened since duty padin ang boyfriend ko kausap ko ang bestfriend ko and talagang nalaman ko na pending pa nga ako and may chance padin ako na lumipat sa kanila..

Around 7pm dumating na si mama and yung pinsan ko.. pagkasakay na pagkasakay ko.. I cried.. a lot.. and I told mama that I miss her and papa.. that I reallly want to see them.. nagkwento ako.. And hindi naman sila nagalit.. When I got home I hugged my papa.. I cried again. I was like a kid na inaaway at nagsusumbong.. I asked him if I could change my hotel.. And I want to be with my babes mela and dada soon.. Nahihiya kasi ako, si tita kasi nagpasok sakin sa hotel..

Tinawagan ko naman yung isa kong bestfriend na si Pinky, since wala pa siyang hotel sabi ko sabay na kami.. Nagkwento din ako ng nararamdaman ko.. Sobrang thankful ako sa mga kaibigan ko..

Around 8pm tinawagan ako ng honey ko.. I was like a kid talaga.. When I heard his voice, umiyak nanaman ako.. kinuwento ko sakanya.. he comforts me..

After that.. nabawasan yung lungkot ko.. nakausap ko kasi si mama, papa, mga kaibigan ko at si bebeng.. sobrang nagpapasalamat ako sa inyo..

And now I am only waiting for my medical result para maka-transfer na ako sa hotel.. I am hoping for good results and I will never forget this experience…